Struggling – A Post In Which I Bewail My Lot…

21 Aug

I am upset that I’ve not been updating my blog as often as I’d like…

Unfortunately I have been suffering a LOT with swelling and pain and general down-beat-ness, and I’ve let feeling sorry for myself get in the way of writing.

My belly is SO big now that I can barely sit up comfortably on anything other than my Swiss ball, and even sitting on that for longer than about 20 minutes is agony on my poor pelvis. I am spending a lot of my time lying down on my side and watching films instead of doing anything productive.

In the past 5 days I have managed to do all the baby’s washing, pick up the last things I needed to be “ready” (I’ll never be ready), pack a labour bag and get some music on my iPod (so I’m almost prepared for the birth now!), but I’m yet to get everything I need in my hospital bag. I’m really hoping that the birth will be straight forward and we can come home a few hours after because I’m not sure I’ll ever be prepared for a stay in hospital. How am I supposed to know how many sleepsuits he’ll need? How many vests? Will I want to wear clothes or will nighties be okay?…IT’S TOO HARD…

Unfortunately, doing anything remotely useful means standing on my feet (which then swell to the size of Christmas hams) and so necessitates a day-long rest afterwards. On Tuesday Luke and I trawled the town centre for the last bits and pieces we needed (or so we thought then anyway), and I was rewarded with an evening of feeling as if I were falling apart, a bout of vomiting and a night of acid reflux. Oh the joys. Luke was convinced that I was going into labour (that’s when I started packing my bags like a maniac) but I totally wasn’t.

…I am getting back pains, period pains, stabbing pains in my cervix (TMI?…maybe, but I’m trying to be truthful about my pregnancy, so yes…stabby cervical pain of doom) and I CANNOT SLEEP…I’m just hoping that all of these are signs of impending labour, and not that this is how it’s going to be for the next 2-4 weeks…oh please, don’t let this continue for the next four weeks…

I spent the first 8 months of my pregnancy checking, fearfully, for blood every time I went to the toilet…now I’m checking for it hopefully.

All we can do is wait.


Posted by on August 21, 2015 in Life, Pregnancy


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6 responses to “Struggling – A Post In Which I Bewail My Lot…

  1. Laura

    August 22, 2015 at 12:08 am

    No advice. Just a, hopefully comforting, reach out of empathy!

    Any films worth a watch?

    • onegirlandacampervan

      August 22, 2015 at 12:18 am

      I’ve mostly been rewatching things but can heartily recommend Tron, Tron Legacy, the Harry Potter series…and Joss Whedon TV shows (I’m four seasons into Buffy (watching again for the Nth time) and have watched both seasons of Dollhouse…) xxx

  2. Veronica Rogers

    August 22, 2015 at 5:16 am

    Oh my goodness, I can’t even imagine! I am 31 weeks and the wait already seems terrible! Hoping for you that the baby comes soon!

    • onegirlandacampervan

      August 22, 2015 at 11:39 am

      I think it gets better and then gets worse again πŸ˜€ although it’s very different for everyone so hopefully your last few weeks will be beautiful and glorious!! Congratulations and good luck! πŸ˜€ xxx

  3. Flourishing Fledglings

    August 22, 2015 at 7:36 am

    Ouch, hope you’re not kept waiting to much longer and that the pains are the start of labour. Not looking forward to the uncomfortable end of pregnancy!

    • onegirlandacampervan

      August 22, 2015 at 11:44 am

      Oh me too…I slept sitting up last night which was fantastic (I actually slept!) until I woke up and realised how bad sitting still for 5 hours is for my pelvis! Ha ha…it will all be worth it πŸ˜€ I hope you have a nice easy end to yours xxx


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